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[Music] what is death well finally we've come to this ultimate of questions which I want to answer for you here very clearly without equivocation but I hope you can appreciate the depth of this topic and how tricky and challenging it is and some of the things I'm going to say here are very advanced insights some of the most advanced insights that you can have about life reality and self and some of the things I'm gonna say are gonna sound outrageous are gonna sound insane are gonna sound impossible and yet they're true and you can discover for yourself that they're true so anything that I'm about to say that sounds far-fetched to you that sounds Looney Tunes to you that sounds fantastical and impossible just understand that first of all I'm not saying it from a position of ideology or belief this is not a belief system of mine number one number two I'm not expecting you to adopt this as an ideology or as a belief system of yours that's not the intent of this communication this is if anything I say has any validity whatsoever you can validate it for yourself in your own direct experience and so that's the place that I'm speaking from if it sounds incredible that's because it is it's highly incredible and yet nonetheless you can still validate it for yourself without needing to believe me so here we go I do you really want to know what is death what is death well first before I tell you see the biggest mistake people make about death is they take death for granted as a given and they also assume first of all they assume that there is such a thing as death that death is real secondly they assume that it's impossible to know what comes with death or after death and that anybody who tells you that they know what death is or what comes after death that these people are deluded that they're religious nut cases that they just have beliefs that they're just speculating that they just have fairies or that they just say they don't want to face the harsh realities of the emptiness of death or the unknown they don't want to say that they don't know so therefore they just make stuff up right this is the standard assumption but this assumption needs to be questioned because when you truly admit that you don't know something that's not the same thing as saying that it's never possible to know something so if right now you honestly don't have a direct experience of what death is you're not conscious of it that's fine that's perfectly fine that's most people in life are in that situation if you find yourself in that situation be honest and tell yourself I don't know what death is that's great that's a great honest place to start from but it's a very gross mistake of epistemology to make the additional leap or conclusion where you then say well and and therefore because I don't know right now that it's impossible to know and that nobody could ever know that's not something you have a direct experience of you don't know that it's impossible to know you just assume so so I want you to be conscious that you've assumed that your whole life also I want you to be conscious that you have assumed that death is a real thing isn't that interesting isn't it interesting that it never occurred to you in your entire life nor anybody around you none of you family members none of your friends none of your teacher thought of your professors none of your clergy people none of your scientists even that you learned from it has never occurred to you or to any of these people to ever sit down and question the validity of the notion of death see a lot of people will act skeptical to my proclamations here that I'm gonna make in a minute about what death is no say olio but you're just a blind believer and you don't really you're not skeptical enough really I'm not skeptical enough or you're not skeptical enough have you actually been skeptical about death why do you think death is real why do you assume that you think that death is a scientifically proven fact or is death something that you're interpreting is death maybe something you're projecting onto reality why do you assume it's real see all of us is taken for granted death is just assumed to be a fact well that's not actually the case so what happens when you actually die when you actually die you dissolve into an ocean of infinite love and consciousness so what death is is it's several things I just want to state it very clearly here and then we'll go into depth elaborating upon all these different formulations of death that I'm going to give you so death is equivalent to infinite love number one death is equivalent to infinite consciousness number two death is equivalent to God number three death is immortality number four death is paradise or heaven number five all of these are synonymous just different facets different ways of looking at what death is but they all come together there's no contradiction between these they all come together death is what are we number six now I don't remember the number death is complete non-duality complete formlessness a total lack of identity of any kind the collapsing of all dualities and so the biggest mindfuck of life is to discover that death is actually infinite love because that's the last thing that you expect death to be we as humans because we're so terrified of death we demonize death that we think that death is going to be the worst thing that's ever happened to us it's the worst possible thing that can happen to you right everything else in life all the other terrible stuff that can happen to you in life is all relative to sort of the absoluteness of death that's how we tend to think of things and we spend our whole life trying to avoid death almost everything we do is is predicated upon the need to avoid death but if you think about it if you ask yourself why am I so afraid of death why are humans so afraid of death if we don't know what it is if none of us have ever experienced it as many of us claim and in fact if we say it's impossible to know what death is that sort of conventional wimp wisdom if that's the case how do you know the death isn't the greatest thing that's ever gonna happen to you in your life you don't you assume it's the worst when someone close to you dies you cry for them and you assume it's the worst thing that could happen to them when your dog or your cat dies you assume it's the worst thing that could happen to them when you see death on the news when you're watching some war zone and you're seeing bodies getting carried out in body bags you think well this is this is terrible people's lives have been cut short and how unfair life is that these people have died prematurely children have died and innocent animals have have been killed and and all this sort of stuff right but if you don't know what death is and you don't by your own admission if you're honest then why do you ascribe all this negativity to it can you see that there's nothing scientific or objective or factual about what you're doing you're assigning a meaning and interpretation to something you have no idea what it really is see can you see how that could be a problem can you see how your own irrational fear of death distorts and skews your perception of reality after all why do you fear death is there something objectively bad about you let's say ceasing to exist if that's what you believe death is what's bad about that well objectively neutrally speaking of course nothing the reason it seems bad to you is because it seems bad to you because you're selfish say and you have a self biased perspective on reality and so everything that you judge to be bad the whole notion of bad is completely relative to the thing the ultimate thing that you call bad which is what you've called death or the end of your survival the end of yourself but what if the self and survival that this is just a self bias you have that there's nothing important or special or even good about it you see so you see to really appreciate what I'm talking about here you need to have watched my episode called self bias and also understanding survival part 1 in part two because what we're really getting at here is we're getting to the very core of self bias self bias how your own selfishness distorts your perception of reality and so one of the chief problems of self bias is that when your self biased you're selfish basically everything you look at gets distorted through the lens of of the self of what your self needs and what you need is to keep surviving as the self you believe that you are whatever that is see and so you might say well Lea what's the problem with that I mean I got to survive don't I to a certain extent you do but also the problem with that is what's the cost of looking at the world in a selfish way the cost of looking at the world in a selfish way is that you don't see it for what it really is you only see it for how it can serve you well the ultimate cost of that is that if you believe that you are a self and you identify with being some particular self and you're now engaging in survival your entire life defending and protecting that self well this process can't last forever it's a finite process it has to end at some point and so therefore now you have committed yourself to fighting against that end your whole life but also at the back of your mind you know that end is coming you sense it's coming and you're afraid of it you can see now if you look at the universe as though it has a beginning or you look at your own life as though it has a beginning necessarily because that's a duality it's gonna also have the end of that beginning you can't have a beginning without an end and you can't have an end without a beginning see so just by thinking that you as an individual being had a beginning necessarily that means there's gonna be an end do it see ordinarily what we assume is just we we assume that well of course how else could it be yeah I have a life I have a beginning and then I have an end so this is totally natural and normal and it's this is just how reality is but what if that's not how reality is what if that is a function of how the mind looks at reality what if death is not a physical event what if death is a construction of the mind what if your birth and your life was a construction of the mind what then see this is a a radical counterintuitive possibility which isn't possible and can't be taken seriously under the materialist paradigm and that's one of the key limitations of the materialist paradigm under the scientific rationalist materialist paradigm as the story goes there's a physical external reality we are beings within that reality we are conscious within that reality but ultimately our consciousness hinges upon physical factors atoms molecules brains neurons biology genetics and evolution and many of these kind of physical stuff so we ground ourselves in that and then we believe that all well death is just death is just a physical process all physical things die and you can't do anything about it and you can't escape it and so the only solution is to just accept it but that's assuming that the materialist paradigm is true what if it's not true what if there is no external reality what if there ever was what if that's just concepts and ideas what if that is a part of how you invented yourself as a self you see to really understand how death works you have to understand how life works and how birth works because you can't have death without birth and of course we take birth for granted as a biological process it's not a biological process it's a process of constructing an identity to be alive at all you need to construct an identity identity is not a scientific fact identity is something you construct an identity is a totally relativistic notion this is another mistake that materialists make and common sense makes these we tend to think that well I'm a human I'm this biological organism sitting here what else could I be or like a dog is a dog and a cat is a cat and a tree is a tree and when a tree dies a tree dies and when a cat dies a cat dies and when a dog dies a dog dies and when a human dies a human dies no a tree was never born to begin with a tree doesn't think of itself as a tree you think of a tree as a tree when you say that a tree dies you are the one who is projecting death onto that tree and you are the one who's even projecting the identity of a tree being a tree onto the tree there is no tree there's colors and shapes and sounds but there's no such thing as an entity called a tree from the point of view of the tree this is the key you have to understand here to understand death identity is the key to death into life what you identify as is totally relative and arbitrary you could identify with being a playboy you can identify with being gay you can identify with being black you can identify with being President of the United States you can identify with being shy and introverted you can identify with being wealthy and successful you can identify with being a human or an alien or a spiritual being or an animal or whatever there's no limit to what you can and if I identify yourself to be and you have many layers of identification to you so you identify with being human most likely you notify with being male or female you defy with being successful or not successful and maybe you identify with your career and you identify with your family and you identify with your race and your identify with your we already said gender um maybe your nation being American or Japanese or Norwegian or whatever see these are all layers to your identity and perhaps most fundamentally you identify with being a living entity a biological entity that might be your most fundamental identity see well what if these things were not facts but things are on my constructed so what I mean here is this the following radical thing see if you can accept us in your mind as a possibility that what I'm telling you is if you stopped telling yourself that you are a man or a woman or black or white or even human or even a biological thing if you stopped telling yourself that you are any of those things you would never have been born is what I'm telling you can you open your mind to that possibility that your birth was not a biological process you telling yourself that your birth was a biological process is part of the identity that you created you see because if you can create an identity where your identity is not something you created but is in your mind you tell yourself is something that is biological and external and out of your hands it's not something you did it's something that happened to you it's something that's a biological physical fact if you create that kind of identity for yourself as a human and you furthermore you add that it couldn't be any other way this is just what's true this is reality you tell yourself if you construct that identity that is your identity and it's gonna feel to you as though you're a real living biological human who was born and who's going to die and that there's no other way it could be are you open to such a possibility this is in fact what you did this is in fact what you're doing see staying alive is not something you just did once if you do it every single moment and what I'm telling you is that if you keep telling yourself every single day that well here I am I'm a human I'm alive I've got a name whatever your name is I've got a gender I'm I'm a Christian or I'm a Muslim or I'm a scientist or I'm an atheist Rob a skeptic or whatever you believe you are if you keep telling yourself that that is how you maintain your birth and what I'm suggesting to you is the following if you stopped telling yourself those things you would die which is precisely why it's not in your interest to understand the things that I'm saying here because if you order stood the things I'm saying here it would be a serious threat to you so again what is death death is the end of your identification with whatever you identify with if you identify with being rich and then you lose all your wealth and then you get the idea in your mind that you're never gonna be wealthy again because you're just no good and you suck and because you know that wealth was just a one-time fluke you're never gonna get back and that your desk to be a poor person literally what's happening in a sense is that a part of you is dying when that happens now of course not the human biological part because remember I said there's many layers to your identity so just because you lose the top layer the surface layer of you being some wealthy billionaire you lose that and when you lose that notice you're gonna go through a mourning process very similar to the process people go through when they lose a loved one or a pet there's gonna be a mourning process of losing your millions of dollars and your reputation and your identity is being a wealthy hotshot but you'll get over it you'll get over it and then your identity will change it'll become something else now no this is still surface level stuff if we keep digging lower and lower and lower we get to the very core of you are you of your identity your identity of being a human being who was born if somehow you managed to question that identity and to deconstruct it and to completely let it go what would happen is that you would die I don't mean that you would stop seeing colors and shapes your identity would die and from that point on if you never thought again in your life going forward if you never thought again the idea of I am a human if you never thought that anymore if you even removed the word eye from your vocabulary from that point on you never thought anymore it would be as though you were never born in the first place life would go on you would eat you would go to the bathroom you could even go to work but it would be as though you were never born this stuff would be happening but it wouldn't be your identity anymore this body would be doing stuff it would be talking it would be thinking even it would be moving its hands and doing stuff but it would be like you're you're dead inside your identity is gone but then you might wonder well in that case what would I actually be what would be my identity like let's say I remove all layers all the artificial layers of the identity I remove my gender I remove my race i remove my wealth i remove my career i remove my family i remove even my biology what's left what's left then is your true identity your identity before anything is constructed this is what we call the true self capital T capital S or the self capital T capital S the self this is an identity of null it's a no identity it's nothing it's emptiness it's pure consciousness empty consciousness formless consciousness and at the same time it's infinite it's everything so whatever is arising is you but also if it doesn't arise that's also you it doesn't matter whether something arises or doesn't arise it's all you now you might say oh okay okay leo fine but what about actual death what about physical death they're not getting it when you tell yourself but what about actual death what about physical death you're imagining that there's no such thing as physical death the distinction you draw between some sort of psychological death and the actual physical death that's part of your identity that's what you you use that distinction to construct your identity because then you say well I exist on this and where the actual death happens that's what's real and then this thing here this psychological mumbo-jumbo that Leo is talking about that's the unreal so this is just philosophy this is just intellectual mental masturbation this is the domain where science happens and this is the domain of [ __ ] religious nonsense if you make that distinction that is the identity that you've constructed for yourself so you got to remove that distinction the distinction between the mental and the physical this needs to go if you want to understand what death is so it's possible for you to become conscious of or to experience death without actually what we would say physically dying the body doesn't need to die for you to become conscious of what death is and the reason that's possible is because you never were the body the body is an identity you construct it for yourself so you can unconstructive can deconstruct that identity and you can experience what death is become conscious of what death is without having to undergo physical death you don't need to shoot yourself or harm yourself see if you actually were the body if that was your ultimate identity then you would have to actually physically harm yourself in order to understand what death is but that was just a materialist assumption that was never deeply questioned now we've questioned it and when you questioned a deep enough we get to the point where realize that oh I don't even need to do that to die see and so in this way what becomes possible is for you to die as they say die before you die die before the body dies you might wonder if Leo how do you know how do you this is true well this is not a belief that I hold of course this is something I've directly become conscious of and that I have experienced I've died many times and I've gone through this process to the point where it's not a it's not even a big deal anymore to die because you just know what death is you're conscious of what it is in fact there's no distinction between life and death so you can become so conscious that you realize that when you die you don't go anywhere because there's nowhere to go because the idea that there's a here and are there like while I'm alive I'm here but when I'm dead I'll be somewhere else this idea of being here or there this this is a duality in itself there is no here or there everywhere is one place everywhere is nowhere so try to maybe look at it from this perspective try to imagine that you were never actually born and that even though you think you were born you're sitting there right now but right now everything you've ever experienced your whole life that you've called your life and you've called birth and all this that all of this has been death the entire time so imagine that this video my voice is speaking to you I'm speaking to you in your death you're already dead because you were never alive you were only alive as an idea that idea alive that's part of the identity you can start it for yourself see and when you quote-unquote die you're not going to go anywhere you're gonna be right here there's nowhere to go there's nowhere to go of course these are very uncomfortable truths that nobody wants to admit see as a society we've demonized death so badly as a society we've we've created a cultural reality out of death literally we've brainwashed ourselves millions of and billions of people have come together to brainwash ourselves that death is bad and horrible and terrible and that we should avoid at all costs and why have we done so because if we didn't do so we wouldn't be here to talk about it this is what survival entails this is the core lie at the heart of survival this is the core falsehood of survival is that survival is fighting furiously to defend something which is completely unreal imagine that what would you do with yourself how would you live life if you realized that death was completely unreal and was just a social construction if you no longer had fear of death how might that change your attitude towards life towards work towards relationships what would you do would there be anything left to fear anymore after you realized that death is an illusion you see fear is a hell of a powerful tool of self-deception because if you think about it let's say there was some deep profound truth that the devil wanted to hide from you if we imagine a devil the devil wants to hide this truth from humanity how would the devil hide this truth would he bury it in the middle of the earth would he shoot it out into outer space where nobody could get to it whoa whoa how would he hide it from mankind he would just simply veil it in fear that's it because anything that mankind deeply deeply fears mankind doesn't explore and what does mankind fear more than death nothing that does the ultimate thing that mankind fears so it's very easy for the devil to hide truth simply by Cokely cloaking it in fear and calling it death and that's exactly what the devil is done metaphorically speaking is the devil has labeled the most truest thing there is truth capital T love with capital L infinity with the capital I God with capital g has labeled that death and so you might wonder well Leo why is enlightenment such a secrets and why are so few people enlightened it's very simple you might wonder why is there no evidence of God because you've called God death you might wonder Leo where is this love you keep talking about infinite love where is the infinite love I don't see it because you've called it death you see how tricky you are this is the very heart of devilry what we're talking about here this is the most fundamental deception that the devil does the devil needs to pervert the truth and call it falsehood and turn falsehood and call it into truth then only then from that from that core self-deception only from that place can survival happen and life can happen if this core self-deception isn't in place there can't be life as we know it there can't be humanity death is truth death is love death is infinity death is God death is consciousness death is selflessness and what you call life that's selfishness that's falsehood that's delusion that's identification that's attachment that's construction that's fantasy that's illusion that's imagination that's hallucination that's survival that's self bias you might wonder how on earth could death be infinite love I'm not talking about some petty human love here I'm not merely talking about the feelings of love I'm not talking about romantic love I'm talking about existential love I've explained it before in my episodes about what is love Part one and Part two I've explained also what truth is in my episode about what is truth I'd explained what consciousness is in my episode about what is consciousness I'd explained what God is in my episode about what is God part one and two so see now we're we're bringing all these together love is nothingness love is infinite freedom love is formless consciousness so when you die literally what happens and it doesn't matter whether this will happen to you through an awakening experience through enlightenment or this will happen to you on a psychedelic or if this happens to you at the moment of your body's physical dying which whichever it happens on for most of you it'll be when your body physically dies what will happen is that you your identity will completely dissolve so this little contracted identity that you've developed over your lifetime this will completely dissolve and you will melt and merge into the entire you verse you will become absolutely one and indistinguishable from everything else and with this your life will end and you will become infinite you'll become totally formless you will become the Godhead and this this very process of dissolution into total absolute selflessness this is the process of of infinite love this is the pinnacle of infinite love so the tragedy the tragedy of life the beauty of life is that we struggle for 80 years we're born and then we struggle for 80 years thinking that work or you know we're struggling against death and we're struggling against fear and we're struggling against all the obstacles in life that interfere with our ability to have a good life we struggle against all that finally we lose that whole struggle and we die and we think to ourselves that oh man this is gonna be the worst thing ever and everything beautiful about life is gonna be gone everything wonderful is gonna be gone and it's just gonna be a bleak empty nothingness some sort of void of nihilism or maybe you tell yourself that you're gonna go to heaven some sort of afterlife in the clouds with 72 virgins and other sorts of materialistic images like that and you're telling yourself how terrible it would be if if if there wasn't to heaven you tell us a holy oath if there's not this beautiful heaven with with the pearly gates and and the 72 virgins then I is just gonna be blank empty nothingness and it's gonna be terrible it's gonna be the worst like you know what kind of cruel evil God would create such a reality where instead of going to heaven I would just end up in an existential nihilistic void forever but what you don't realize is that is infinite love that is the very essence of heaven heaven is not a material place heaven is the total absence of self it's completely becoming unlimited unlimited in every way that's infinite love that's heaven that's nirvana that's paradise it's total formlessness and while it's threatening to us as little egos as little formed entities it's threatening to us because it it dissolves us we lose all of our shape when this happens actually what you discover in that process is you discover that that is your true form that is the happiest you'll ever be that is the freest you'll ever be this is existence and reality and goodness and love in its most pure form in otherwise completely formless it's almost like imagine we have a little bit of water let's say we have a liter of water here on earth and we could put it into different containers we can put it into a tall glass into a wide flat dish we can put it into various shapes depending on the containers it takes because you know the water is is fluid we can even freeze it and carve it into some sort of sculpture and here we have this ice sculpture and there is it it is in its particular form but then what happens is if we take this water and we just throw it out into the middle of empty outer space the water just what does it become it just becomes a blob an amorphous blob we might imagine a sphere especially if it's like warmed up a little bit by the Sun just becomes like liquid water and just floats in a vacuum in zero-g and so it doesn't have any shape because it's being pulled equally in all directions perfectly equally let's let's imagine this kind of scenario and it's liquid water or you could imagine liquid mercury whatever so that it's still liquid even if it's out in the middle of space you know it's cold out there but whatever so it's liquid and it's just it's a perfect sphere see and you might say well this is terrible from the point of view of an ice sculpture because an ice sculpture needs to maintain a particular form otherwise it stops being that literally it dies if you break it apart into some other shape but also you could think of it as the following you could think of it as when the water becomes a perfect sphere and lose all of his shape that's when it's most essentially what it really is its amorphous that is its truest nature see water is not an ice sculpture water is not tall water is not shallow water is not short water is not wide water is not a cube water is not water is amorphous that's its essence and so that's all that really death is is you're going from a shape a particular shape that you've constructed and identified yourself with being to being amorphous being infinite being omnipresent and of course to do this and to live from this place then it is possible to live from this place you don't need to actually physically die to live from such a place you would have to have no identity whatsoever by having no identity you have an infinite identity which means you're completely universal and you're completely detached from any particular form now you can appreciate why the great sages and mystics and religious teachers have told you from the very very beginning that attachment is the enemy of the spiritual path and you know going back all the way to Jesus in the Bible you know he talks about how he's easier for it's it's as hard for a rich man to get into heaven as it is for a camel to pass through the eye of a needle you see so why does he say that because the rich man is attached to all these material attachments his successor as well to his power and fame and all his accumulated houses and and cars and all this sort of stuff while you're attached to to all those things you can't become totally formless you can't realize your total formless identity and so you're always stuck in that particular form and you think that form is so great but what you don't realize is how great it is to lose all form altogether and you're terrified no not only do you not realize this you're completely terrified of it so no matter how much I sit here and I tell you how about how death is absolute love and it's infinity and it's God and it's beautiful it's wonderful it's the best thing that'll ever happen to you no matter how much I tell you all that it doesn't matter because you're utterly terrified of it because you're so attached to your particular form and you think that I'm just bullshitting you or you think that well what if Lia was wrong so no amount of my talking will get you to surrender your attachments for that to happen you would actually have to go through a process of death of self deconstruction and self annihilation you'd have to go through that process and that process will be terrifying for you most likely because most of us are terrified of death why are we terrified of death because we have to be in order to be alive as these chimp-like human creatures see we're in a bind we're damned if we do and damned if we don't because if all of us were not afraid of death we couldn't be here talking about it because to be here talking about it we have to create form we have to create a society with create a culture Olympic great technology we have to live long enough to have children so they can pass on information pass on knowledge build more technology resulting in the communication systems we have today so that I could deliver this message to you none of this would be possible if you were totally formless and I was totally formless but then again none of it would be necessary either because what's the whole point of this communication it's to ultimately get you to realize your total formlessness so you might wonder why does it need to be this way well it does I mean it's a circle it's a never-ending infinite circle see the form which reality creates then ultimately leads to the unification and depolarization of all form and all dualities which ultimately merges back in total unity and then once that unity is accomplished then that unity breaks apart d it polarizes itself splits itself into dualities creates form creates live creates reality creates animals creates humans creates your life creates technology all of this and then of course once that all's here then it needs to come back together and unify again and this is all that reality is it's a it's a polarization and depolarization process it's a process of division and unification so your birth was a process of division and your death is a process of unification and of course the old my ultimate mind [ __ ] of it all is that there's no difference between division and and unification they're they're totally identical they're two sides of the same coin you see and you are all of that you are the division and you are the unification you are the birth and you are the death so by going all the way meta what you realize that all this is a process happening inside of you the universal you the formless you you see and that all of this is just a manifestation of love this is what love is infinite love tada this is what you see all around you infinite love manifesting itself both in polarized and non polarizing forms through division answer unification and this goes on to infinity forever all the way down and all the way up forever it's a fractal of infinite love and you can realize this directly because this is what you are you're not separated from it so the greatest irony and tragedy of human life is that we all live in such terror of death and what we don't realize as humans is that death is a total illusion actually death will be the most beautiful end of your life it'll be the most beautiful thing that has ever happened to you now of course don't get me wrong I'm not saying here that if you if you torture a person that he's gonna sit there and enjoy it and of course not so the actual circumstances by which you come to die those can be horrific and torturous and very painful and can lead to a lot of suffering you know if you're if you're going through the process of being tortured before you're dead that's gonna be hell but the actual moment of your death that's going to be the pinnacle of life see that's gonna be your life coming completely full circle and you merging back into your true nature and you becoming the truth you becoming the entire universe you losing your identity completely see and so the tragedy and irony of it all is that we humans have invented so many elaborate schemes and systems to avoid to avoid becoming the most beautiful thing that there is and the reason and all these schemes and systems I'm talking about crimes businesses relationships families sexuality entertainment movies video games social media politics governments war all of that all of that is just a delay tactic to avoid infinite love because the infinite love is so deep and so profound that it completely eclipses your ability to exist as a finite thing whatsoever that's how good reality is so while we might think that oh my god I'm depressed or something bad happened in my life we might think of how this is so why does life have to be so terrible hunter life is so terrible precisely because life is infinite love but it's precisely because life is infinite love that it's so epic in its goodness that if you were to see it's full goodness you would cease to exist and nobody would even know that you existed so if you want to exist you have to deny actively deny infinite love and that's literally what you've been doing your whole life otherwise you wouldn't be here you'd already be gone you'd have already merged into infinite love so the only ones of us that are here in humanity and in society that are talking about life and reality and science and all this stuff are the ones who are terrified of infinite love because those of us who weren't we're already dead we're gone we're out of here you can't talk to those people they're already in infinite love and of course going to infinite love is not don't imagine as going some other place like some sort of super hidden dimension somewhere no no no going into infinite love is right here right now this all of this so when your grandmother dies or your grandfather dies or your parents die or your children dies or your children die or your your pet dies your friend dies what happens literally they become you this right here everything is here your grandparents consciousness your mother's consciousness your father's consciousness your children's conscious your dogs or cats consciousness all the consciousness of all the people have ever lived is right here right now in your consciousness but you are separating yourself from that because you need to create an identity of being a self which is why you've created in the first place these ideas of my grandparents consciousness my mom's kinder says my dog's consciousness other people you know Hitler from the past or Caesar and from the Roman times whose long dad do you think that these people have gone somewhere they haven't gone anywhere they're right here only their forms have disappeared and you think that those people are dead only because in your mind you're attached to their forms see Cesar's right here Hitler is right here anyone who's ever died in your life is right here nothing has happened to them nothing bad has ever happened to anybody in reality that's the truth of death and of course this will all be radically denied totally denied by society by your family by your friends by your own mind and I will be called a devil for saying this I will be called evil for saying this I will be called a monster I will be called deluded I will be called a cult leader I will be called insane I will be called religious and woohoo and new agey for saying all these things and why would I be called all those precisely because everything I said here has to be denied if you want to continue living life as a finite being which is why this is I gotta talk to you in school you're not gonna read it in some textbook you won't see this on the evening news no one is gonna validate this for you nor should you believe me because hey you know the things I'm saying are pretty outlandish what if I'm wrong what if I am be lewd what if I am crazy what if I am a criminal you don't know from your point of view you know nothing so if you believe me it gets you nowhere you're still stuck being a finite being and if you don't believe me that's even worse if you're sitting there doubting me well that also gets you nowhere you're still a finite being still stuck in the delusion of things that there's death so death really isn't is a relativistic notion what dies is your identity from the absolute point of view nothing dies it's all just an infinitely reincarnating fountain God is just a shape-shifter at shape-shifts through an infinite number of forms and it's not not attached to any particular form therefore it lives forever can't die it's immortal I remember the first time I became aware of the possibility of immortality this happened long before I actually awoke and realized it personally but you know we got to start somewhere so usually the way this process works is that you hear stories of immortality and you think they're just stories until one day you hear enough of these stories that a possibility a radical new possibility opens up in your mind that maybe they're not just stories maybe that immortality is actually possible not as a science fiction scenario where your brain gets uploaded into some computer no no no actually possible as a function of changing how you perceive reality that is the key insight that is necessary that that that won't get you where you need to be that's just the key insight that opens the door through which then it's a long corridor you have to walk through that before you actually reach immortality so but that that initial opening of the door is a critical step and I can explain when I first realized this this was years before I actually awoke I think I was reading some sort of Zen parable you know those Zen koans and things sent Zen stories which are kind of flood and cute to read and I was reading this story where in this story they were talking about a forest trees and a forest and this story said something along the lines of if a tree identifies with being a tree and that tree in that forest is cut down that's the end of that tree but if the tree identifies with being not a tree but the entire forest and one of the trees in the forest is cut down the forest is immortal and it can never die and when I read that that was my first clue as to this being a real possibility because I realized at that point that what if I my whole life is just like that tree what if I'm misidentifying if I switched my identity from being that of a human this body to that of being the entire universe if I could make that shift in identity that might be enough to make me immortal and sure enough that's the case now you might say olya but what about what if they cut down the whole forest if you cut down the whole forest then then it's all dead and so your immortality fails that's correct because this is just an analogy you know every analogy has its limits so in this analogy if you did cut down the whole forest that would be the end because you identify with being a forest a forest is still a finite limited formed thing so for you to truly become immortal you would have to not identify with being a forest you'd have to identify with being infinite with being the entire universe with being nothing now you might say ah leo but the universe even if I expanded somehow my identity magically expanded it to include the entire universe still Leo doesn't science tells us tell us that the universe will collapse at some point or it'll go to some sort of you know heat death or you know I guess even the universe might be destroyed maybe gets sucked into some black hole and then even the universe is gone that's right so this is the difference between a universe with the lowercase U and a universe with a capital uppercase u so when I say universe when I say identifying with the whole universe I'm talking about universe as an absolute with an uppercase u that's not the universe of science the universe of science is a finite limited relativistic formed thing which will die it was born and it will die so if you identify with with our particular scientific universe you're still gonna be mortal you need to identify with being truly infinite infinite universe is a totality of everything that's ever possible including all the multiverses and anything else out there and our universe all of that you got identified with absolutely everything that's the only thing that isn't created or destroyed the totality the unity the oneness if there's any heat of duality in your notification then you're gonna be mortal because every duality collapses so you have to go so meta that you transcend any individual dualities and you identify with the entire movement of reality of consciousness this polarization and then depolarization this division and merging see you can't identify with any one particular division you have to be the whole thing and that's exactly what you'll become at your death pretty cool huh see so life is the opposite of cruel because what you don't realize is that this whole time you've been here in life material existence and your life has been endangered many times you've suffered and you've always faced this crippling fear of death and you know what if something go terribly wrong with your children all this but what you don't realize is that when something does go terribly wrong with your children if it does let's hope it doesn't but if something does go terribly wrong with your children well you don't realize its parent is that your child becomes infinite love so nothing is lost see that's the beauty of the design of life is that all suffering and all setback and all loss is all finite and relative but the absolute is love and goodness and it's always that and so you really have nothing to lose and nothing to fear but fear itself the love is so great that you are too finite and weak to handle it that's the tragedy of everything that you think is evil or bad everything you think that seems to undermine the love of the design of life that's actually it's very evidence but you don't want to accept that because there's a finite little little limited being from your point of view you're just attached to survival that's all you understand is survival you can't understand it and it love you can't understand that it makes no sense to you your mind cannot handle the idea of death so the irony is that it seems as though well you know the things you're saying here are so outlandish and so unscientific and so mystical it's so irrational and so full of wishful thinking and it's like who are you really kidding here no this is truth and all of your pretenses to science to materialism to atheism to rationalism all of these ideas and and identities you've constructed about being a realist and being rational and being like being hard-nosed and being factual and being objective all of this this is all fantasies this is all wishful thinking this is all denial of infinite love all of your skepticism doubt all of your pessimism all of your depression all of your criticism all of this is just a denial of infinite love and you're going to lose this battle no matter what doesn't matter what you believe doesn't matter how hard you fight you are guaranteed to lose the battle to infinite love you're going to melt into infinite love no matter what you do it doesn't matter and that is God's mercy for all of its creation so you're playing a game you can't possibly lose but you have fooled yourself into thinking you can lose it and that's why you suffer and that is the source of all evil evil is nothing other than a misperception of the truth but your consciousness is so finite that you can't help yourself you don't know how not to miss perceive the truth so this is the situation that we're stuck in the entire process of life of human growth is the process of coming to realize your own finitude and ignorance your own self limitation and then transcending your own self limitations your own self deceptions that's what all of your life is about whether you realize it or not and the extent to which your life becomes good and enjoyable and peaceful is the extent to which you align yourself with this process and then the extent to which your life is miserable and full of suffering and pain and evil is the extent to which you resist this process you deny this process and you act like a stubborn mule and you try to be selfish and wisdom is aligning yourself with this process and moving directly towards selflessness as soon as you can without detours distractions games defense mechanisms and all that other stuff that you do that we call human life yeah that's a hell of a thing but hey don't take my word for it discover for yourself what is the case maybe I'm wrong you might wonder Walia what about reincarnation what about that from the highest absolute perspective everything infinitely reincarnates so after this body dies will there be some new body of core probably I mean I don't know I don't know the details of what will happen after this bio and body dies so I'm not going and gonna make claims about that I'm talking about the absolute perspective from the house protect if it doesn't matter what happens to this body it doesn't matter if I turn into a giraffe or if I turn into an alien or if I turn into Hitler like none of it doesn't matter because ultimately from the absolute perspective I already am all those things I'm cycling through the entire chain of being and so are you because I am you and you are me so right now I'm sitting here shooting this this video I'm also sitting there listening to myself talk as you see so it doesn't matter unless you think it does it's relative so don't get stuck on this idea of us for a finite limited reincarnation or incarnation is unlimited you might say believe how could you possibly know any of this I died I died it's your direct experience and you can too did it does you no good to sit there and speculate about this stuff to theorize about it like all well what if Leo is right or what if he's stronger but I think this will happen maybe I'll turn into a giraffe or maybe I'll turn into an alien or maybe this happened this isn't help what's necessary and the only way you can understand what's being communicated here is by actually dying of course the problem is that that's this is the last thing you want to do you don't want to do it now you might say Oh Leo put but if what you're saying is true why don't you just shoot yourself right now but that assumes I'm alive to begin with I've already done it many times so I don't need to shoot myself physically you're attached to this whole physical thing you don't need to physically kill yourself nor don't get me wrong I am not advocating that you physically harm your body whatsoever I don't advocate suicide in the physical sense what I'm advocating is that you realize that the duality between physical and mental is unreal and imaginary that's what I'm talking about here so don't don't get me wrong you might ask well Leo what but if I'm depressed right now and I'm in a miserable situation in my life why do I have to work for awakening why don't I just kill myself right now physically what I'm shooting I'll be infinite and I'll be God why don't I just do that well you can I don't recommend it for social reasons I don't recommend it but you certainly can thousands of people do every single year but there's something wrong about it because you you still when you do that you still do it out of selfishness you see you see the problem you're still doing out of selfishness the much better way to go about it would be to actually do the spiritual work instead to overcome your suffering and your depression all that to rise above it to transcend it to do this not physically but to do it at a mental level or at an existential level transcend existentially and then to become a example for others of what's possible for them and then to enjoy your life enjoy existence enjoy the formed material world you can enjoy all this stuff it's amazing it is amazing and also remember there's nowhere to go so if I shoot myself right now where am I gonna go I'm gonna be right back here I'm not going anywhere from your point of view till seem like this body disappears but it doesn't matter see you're the one who's attached to this body not the awakened person the awakened person is not attached to the body so so harming the body is completely unnecessary this itself as egotism do the work to awaken and appreciate the beauty of love manifest in physical form you see when you're totally formless as the Godhead let's say after you physically die there you can appreciate love in his totally pure formless state but it's even wrong to say that you can appreciate it because appreciation is still a formed limited finite process or thing don't worry about that you'll be there you came from there you'll go back there so don't worry about that when you're here in this formed body and this formed realm enjoy and take it all in as beautiful it's amazing it's remarkable this is love crystallized precipitated as mater you're living in a in a matter / love construction here appreciate that love and mater in its finite form is a beautiful thing it's finite but it's still remarkable and it's beautiful and it's worthy of appreciation because look if you don't do it who else will you're the only one here someone has to appreciate all this stuff you are here to appreciate what you are you are both that formless thing but you're also this formed thing here and really they're not different so appreciate it the point of life is to awaken and then to appreciate yourself and all of it is yourself appreciate the love that's here stop separating yourself from the love that you are and then when your body dies it dies and you're not attached to it it's not a problem and it's all good see that's my suggestion for you is this really possible how could it be that humans can be immortal well I know it sounds outlandish but that's literally what I'm saying is that you are immortal but you ain't a human so you have to let go of this idea of humans being immortal because humans can't be immortal humans are a formed thing everything formed is mortal by definition even rocks and trees planets Suns stars they're all mortal but consciousness itself truth itself love itself these are immortal these are absolutes the absolute is the case under all circumstances it doesn't change can't be creative destroyed has nowhere to go you can't kill it because you have nothing to kill it with when you have total oneness realize this if you have total oneness oneness cannot kill itself because the process of killing something means that here it is you have to go outside of it that means you have to split it into two one part of it has to then kill or attack the other part then this part has to disappear go to some some other place because these two parts let's there in one part of the universe there has to be some other part of the universe or somewhere else the trash bin of the universe so to speak where all the dead stuff goes you know like in a fever of programmed computers there's a there's something called garbage collection that means that when you create objects in a computer virtual world to destroy these objects actually isn't that easy this is actually a challenge for many video games and other computer simulations is that they have to construct the object but that object is in memory then they have to destroy that object but when they destroy that object it still is retained in memory you have to do special processes to dump that data somewhere else but where are you gonna dump that data if you have nowhere else to dump it to because you have one total oneness you see total one this means that the very space where everything is is the exact same space where the trash bin is we're inside the trash bin of the universe right now this is the trash bin hello so you can't really kill yourself in fact this is a bit of a terrifying realization when you first have it it's possible for you to realize that you cannot kill yourself God cannot kill itself and this is one of the paradoxes of God because you know some of those paradoxes that are like well if God created the rocks can God create a rock that he himself can't lift interesting paradox I've addressed it before and my FAQ about what is God part 2 check out that FAQ right dress it but a similar paradox is this one if God is all-powerful can God kill itself and if it can't doesn't that mean that it's not all-powerful what's the answer well the answer is is that God is all-powerful but the one thing it can't do is it can't kill itself not as an absolute it can kill itself in the relative domain and really the part of the answer is that the idea of killing itself that is a dualistic notion that only exists in the relative domain so this problem doesn't exist for God as an absolute as an absolute killing and death are our null notions you can't apply those dualistic gnosis to the absolute but in the relative sense God can't kill itself in the sense that they can create a human the human is dissatisfied with its life the human shoots itself kills itself and this sense God can kill itself but that's only because God isn't fully one isn't fully conscious God is in its polarized form and so what killing itself means is the unification of the polarization you see so once God is fully in its unified state the notion of killing something or going somewhere else simply can't even arise you see because what killing means is it means to unify really but how can you unify that which is already fully unified you can't so all that you need to do is change your identity from being out of a human to being that of God and then your amore and that is ultimately the power of truth pretty cool that truth turns out to be so damn powerful alright that's it I'm out of here please click that like button for me and come check out my website actualized org there you'll find my blog you'll find my book list the life purpose course new stuff that I plan to be releasing in the future I have some more courses plan and other stuff that I'm working on and if you like my work support me on patreon you could chip in 5 bucks a month or something like that a small amount but it could help me to expand the channel in the future do maybe some advertising attract more people to this life-changing work there we go now you understand what death is now you should never fear death ever again but of course in practice you're gonna be terrified of death for a long time to come even if you have awakenings you're still gonna be terrified of death because the e the self letting go of all of your attachments this is a much more challenging endeavor than simply having a few awakenings to truly transcend the fear of death an awakening won't be enough you're gonna need a massive [ __ ] awakening and even after that you're surely gonna have attachments in practice it's just really really hard to purify this body in this mind of all of its attachments really hard you can have family attachments relationship attachments sexual attachments even attachments to food to money to success to comfort to pleasure to whatever you're gonna have attachments it's really really hard you could do you could make a lot of progress but just keep in mind it's really really hard it's gonna be a lot harder than you think it is but also it's a it's a highly worthwhile process to go through even if you never become totally detached from absolutely all material existence even a little bit of attachment will improve your life will make it easier will make it more enjoyable will make you feel like a child again and that's exactly what psychedelics do is for that brief moment those five or ten hours that you're in a psychedelic trip during that time you are detached from material existence and it feels like heaven it feels like paradise it feels amazing you wish you could be in that state all of your life but of course you probably can't and the reason you can't is for your own good so that you can keep surviving see so long as you're here I don't care how awakened you are so long as you exist in a finite formed way so long as there is a body here so long as there is a mind here so long as language is being used so long as food needs to enter your body to keep you alive so long as that is the case you're gonna have attachments and you're gonna be playing by the rules of survival because as soon as you stop playing by the rules of survival you're gonna die very quickly and that's fine there's nothing wrong with that you can do that if you want you can starve yourself to death if you want but all so why why is that why is that something you should want to do you're gonna die anyways I mean your physical body is so why not instead choose to enjoy all this cool stuff that's here and then when you die you can exist as as empty formlessness for a trillion years even longer for eternity so uh you can you can have your cake and eat it too is what I'm saying you don't need to choose one or the other you can have both that's how good reality is you